2001-05-23 - 11:59 p.m.

Where To Now?

There is still quite a bit left to do about my Dad's estate, and I got the bulk of it done today. There's one lingering mystery, however.

When Dad was admitted to the hospital he had a bag of personal belongings. It contained clothes from what I could tell looking at it from the outside. I did not dare to actually stick my hand into the bag.

I went to the hospital to see if they had it, and they claimed that the funeral home took it away. I called the funeral home and they said they'd never seen it.

As far as I am concerned, this is one mystery that can remain unsolved. I'm 99% certain there was nothing in the bag but soiled clothes anyway.

As for the rest of it - it's just waiting for various agencies to get back to me.

This trivial stuff aside, I find myself feeling... odd. Like I've been cast adrift.

I knew that this day would come, when I wouldn't have to look out for Dad anymore, but I really had no plans for what came after. I just sort of assumed that the situation would continue indefinitely. Now that it's over I feel somewhat at a loss. I need to figure out where I want to go, and how to get there. I have a lot of thinking to do.

I think it's this uncertainty that is what is making me somewhat crabby recently, and making it hard to write here. Hopefully I can work it out over the next several days.

I was about to say that I could relax and take my time, but if there is anything this should teach me is that time is precious and finite. It's that way for everyone.